but throughout it all, underneath the upset, the tears, and the turmoil I had a calm centre created from the knowledge that I had been truly seen for the first time in my life by someone whose opinion I trusted and I made Him proud.
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Friends – a #F4tFriday post
She found me raging in the university library about the lack of books, about the assumption that mature students could afford either the time to search for secondhand books or the money to buy them new. I was raging, spitting derision for the place, for the expectations and hiding behind that rage from my fear that I had made a terrible mistake. She saw my rage and didn’t hide from it, she knew it wasn’t aimed at her and wonder of wonders, what made me spiky and difficult to befriend for others became the reason she liked me. She always knew that my rage had the energy to overcome my…
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#F4TFriday – Memories, Moments and Wanting More
The Beach Boys are playing ‘God Only Knows, as I type this in front of a fire that I hefted the coal for into my car boot at the garage as He got soaked to the skin putting air in my sodden tyres to keep me safe. In this cosy setting we paint us on a canvas bought for another purpose. We paint over the existing brush strokes with our conversations, moving from twitter to plans, to work, to people we know, with ease and interest. We lighten the shadows, highlight an obscured point of interest, deepen the darkest places until they glow again. Sometimes we just hug on His…
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Elpis and the Road Less Travelled
I have a little book with me. The first entry is dated 27/07/2000, 19 years ago and 7 months into our setting up our business together with a family of four, the youngest of which was 4 years old. My thoughts were naturally revolving around my children. I can see that I am concerned with how I was spending my time with them, but also, even then, with how to be me. I write ‘The Art of Living – ways of being with children, not using the time to educate them, actually showing them yourself‘ I go further ‘How to make a job/career of that time’ Then I add ‘Therese’s…
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Sugar
Another long day had nagged at her enjoyment of the smallest things. Usually able to take pleasure in the intense aroma of a well-made cup of coffee or at the sight of a turning leaf falling from a tree through an arc of sunlight, today’s demands had made her hair grey rather than silver and threatened the reliable smile on her face. She needed something sweet to reconnect her with delight once more but was unable to deliver it to herself in her careworn state. Her phone pinged with a notification – Here Yes, she replied and proceeded to empty her cares into the phone, telling him of the additional…
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The Practice of Falconry
I am your hawk you do not ask me not to hunt you do not cope my beak or talons instead.. you exhalt in my flight employ my abilities in your service retain me under your thumb stoop-homed, breath-bated with blood feathers primed I wait.. You have me hoodwinked, made my focus yours been my excitement’s captor roused, released and recall-lured me. I keen, a lamping we go! first posted on Fetlife December 2013 still true ?
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A tale of two courgettes
I loved that gap, that guilty, illegal, stolen, seductive gap. and as it widened between my husband and me, between my persona as a good wife and mother, into it stepped someone I hadn't seen for a very long time. Me.
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What will I make of this I wonder?
I wonder what I will make of this time when it is over. Will it seem like an oasis of calm or a void that I am grateful to be out of? Or will I be more certain of the importance of this space and time in the future in a way I cannot be now? This is the first time I have lived alone. It is a strange existence, there is now no one to DO for except myself and instead of this feeling a liberation it feels more like a casting off. No one needs me, except myself and I don’t want me, I want someone else. I am…
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Wait! Wait. I’ll tell you when
This image was created from a collaboration between me and the talented @Oh_Tom_Starling. More of his work can be seen here Check him out, I adore his work which is so original and fresh. Part of the joy of having a blog and a twitter account is the opportunity it creates for collaborations. I enjoy working with across a variety of disciplines so if what you see here inspires you get in touch, either here or via my twitter account which is @_Masterseye. Looking forward to connecting soon ?
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Playing house
Remember the house corner in first year Infants? A corner of the classroom which was divided from the rest of the classroom with a partition to give the third wall. Open at the front and filled with infant sized furniture, equipment and dolls? My memory is of watching others play there, mainly girls putting dolls to bed, pretending to wash up and sending the boys who wanted to play with them on shopping errands for bread and milk. They focused on fussing around with the baby, changing its clothes, showing it off and taking it for walks and in the interaction between those they had agreed to play house with. Playing in…